Hey guys. Sorry I haven't really been all that active on here.
I honestly haven't been drawing all that much because for some reason when I would try - nothing comes to my mind or inspires me.
I think it's partially due to my depression creeping up on me at times (Do not worry though - I am still taking my antidepressant every day). From a combination of dealing with some jerk that has been trying to get 4,000+ plus from me for medical research I had no say on (This went on for months, but I THINK it's been taken care of), blood tests results and how that affected me (I won't disclose any details as to what upset me. However I have been making myself healthier since then), my cellphone dying and making me lose so many photos of memories from Otakon on there, me being angry about people I care about to the point of me ranting/crying --- needless to say - a lot of emotional stuff has gone on with me as of late. That hasn't been helping with me in wanting to do things I love. Keep in mind - all of this I mentioned happened ALL AT ONCE on a single day - and bottling up all of that emotion in one day was not healthy for me.
Not to mention that with all of this happening, I've felt at times really alone or I would shut people out.
But you know - ever since all of that happened - my mother and I seemed to have gotten closer. Which is great. I mean we were always close, but I just feel even closer this time.
-sigh- I know I keep saying that I'll have art soon, but honestly I'm not really sure when anymore. I just need that moment where I just have an idea and it sticks with me to where I HAVE to do it because the drive is in me.
I haven't been watching the new TMNT episodes - mainly because like I said before - I lost interest in the 2012 series since part of the space stuff. So I cannot say much about that.
Honestly... I've mostly been hooked on Transformers and Voltron as of late. Heh heh. Here I am - a woman that wanted nothing to do with giant robots - gets hooked on series with giant robots.
Er... -thinks- On another positive note, I DID buy myself a new dress. It's really also a cosplay, but I figured I could get away with wearing it in public. ...because why the hell not? You know that teal curtain dress that Giselle from Disney's Enchanted wore? It's that. I LOVE that dress. I always wanted to wear it.
-awkward smile- Yep. They accommodated for a plus woman like me to have that dress made.
My family is doing alright. My father has gotten better with his anger I think. I mean he still scares me at times, but he seems more patient than before. So that's good.
Long story short - I hope to get back into the swing of things. I've been trying to doodle on/off - so it's not like I'm not trying. Because I DO want to post art up here because I do enjoy doing so. Not just for myself, but for you guys. So I'm going to try and do my best.
Otherwise... you'll see me reblogging on my tumblr a lot. yarnturtle.tumblr.com
Well, I'll talk to you all later. Hopefully with some better news.nichan